wow, its been a while

my mother is philippino
my father is white
therefore i am half asian/half white
i have never been in love
in fact to tell you the trurth, i couldn't tell you what love even is
i've matured a lot since last year
my view on life has completely changed from how it used to be 2 years ago
my biggest anticipation is graduation
if i could i would live on a beach, sun rise to sun set.

i love, absolutely love beaches. i love the sand and the smell and the feeling and i love the way the ocean water sprays your legs when you walk along the shore, it's the best feeling.

i don't wanna grow up
I love crabs, steak, mashed potatoes, and ribs. seriously.
i also love green tea, vitamin water, smart water/any water, pom juice.
i think i'm confused more in life now than i've ever been
i don't know what i want but at the same time i do
i really really like someone a lot right now
i hope i don't mess things up like i always do
i wanna move to North Carolina or any other beachy place
when i turn 18, 17 months, i'm getting tattoos and atleast my nose pierced
i don't know what i wanna do with my life anymore
i love photography
i love being able to find something gorgeous and have it forever in a photo
my old nickname was hot lips, now they call me GYNA! haha
i was born in calvert county and then came back home to Kent Island
moved 13 years later to where i live now
I love relaxing
I love incenses
i can't dance, i can't sing
i hate liars
i love music
rastafarian love <3
i like neat things
i wish i had no flaws
i wish life was more simple in my head than what i make it out to be
i don't wanna be just another person that lives a shitty life and then dies
i want more of a purpose than that

megun and butts are my most trusted friends ever
yes, i bit megun when i was in kindergarden
yes, i gave butts her nickname
no, we aren't gay togther.
out of every guy i've known, i've been able to put my trust fully in kyle
i miss hanging out with tabitha lovelee crawford so so so much

i wish i was actually taoist
i love asian things
the tao of pooh is the greatest book ever
i like coloring books, no lie.
STICKER BOOKS are my other big favorite
i can't cook worth shit
the cooking channel is soOoOo fetch
i'm not a pot head and i'm not an alcoholic but i like to have my fun too
i wanna get married/proposed on a beach
i want a wedding ring that has a seashell where the diamond should be
i love art , i love it.
i wanna learn how to play the harmonica
i love nighttime and i like when the electricity goes out when its dark out
i love thunderstorms.
lightening on beaches are the prettiest things ever
unicorns don't exist... but they're nice to think about
fairy's don't either.. i don't know where ryan seacrest came from
my favorite candy=super blow pops
i love coffee and cappuccino.
orange sherbet push pops are theeee best
i hate when kids say they're in love
i hate celebrities
i hate people who have nothing wrong with their appearances, like they're 100% gorgeous
hippies are cool haha
i love polka dots and little retro things
i love kyles mole on his side and i love his little hips
going to shows are fun
getting into trouble is not
if i had it my way, my parents would trust me fully again
i miss ki. sometimes.
i hate sad memories of things you don't want to remember
i hate when a pet dies

i used to have a rooster and hen and they went to my neighboors yard and went under the porch and the dog killed the rooster when it was trying to protect the hen and we found it under the porch all stiff and what not. it was sad.

camping is fun.
i like painting my nails
shop lifting is a crime. hahahahaha
i used to wish i was a redhead because they're so so pretty
pippy long stocking was my favorite. annie was a little scary
i miss ccc night with tab
i miss sneaking out nights with meg and butts
i miss mall time with corinne
i wish i still got chased around by those two little boys on bikes like in eight grade. haha
i wanna go to the snowball stand and get a green apple snowball with marshmellow on top and a light green air head. those were the days.
i wanna go fishing
i miss walking up and down the beach throwing horseshoe crabs into the water when they'd get stuck in the rocks. i felt like a hero.
jellyfish are super
i wish i had a big butt
i used to be a veg
I MISS TALKING ON THE PHONE FOR FIVE HOURS
i miss last summer in arkansas/alabama ( i dont remember which one)
my memory is pretty much shot
i will always want him

The Best Summer

Vacation Is OVER.

and i'm not happy.

i added all this stuff to a weblog thing i did like yesterday and i accidently exed out before submitting... good thing i type really fast or else i'd be realllll mad. umm anyways first day of sophomore year at qachs was yesterday and it sucked. me and ashley L sit with mike and maura at lunch and whomever the other people i dont know are... first periods pretty cool, i have graphics with joey oey and andrew.. i have second period with toni, matt, christine, and a few other good people.. third period alex, lb, john, chris, julie, and alan are in there.. and last period with mr wilder.. oh yey geometry. pam, gabby, corey, delmas cousin?, and krys are in there.. i don't really talk to some people but thats ok i have plenty of aquaintences in there. umm the freshman really suck badly. and yeah i got my car show pics developed from like last month i guess.. man these hot pink cars are hott. ah look its 3:11 and i'm still bored and i haven't done my homework... oh well. anywyas nothings knew so um yeah fuck it.

k3- your definition of a sexy beast.

um friday nite i spent the nite over megs and i went to her volleyball scrimage and yeah i kind of miss ki volleyball now and everyone on the team but oh well.. afterwards we got picked up by her mom and went to mcdonalds and such and we coudln't get on the computer so we went on a 7 or 8 p.m. walk down to the pier and when we got there we smoked and walked alll the way back and my feet were killing me um we ended up going to bed at 4 am i guess and i spent the nite over her house again last nite so like at 2pm we went to her uncle and grandmoms birthday party in ellicot city and swam and ate and all until like 9:56 whn we got back to her house and like we decided to go on another walk to the pier and i decided to use my brilliant ideas and bring a jar of dill pickles and like we went past the corn fields on our way up the road and i told megan to grab one so we could lite it on fire cause like we brought like 100 matches and all and so we were walking to the pier and i was holding a jar of pickles and megan had in her hand a whole thing of corn.. like the whole stick thing and all and we got down by the pier and just sat there talking like usual and got bored so we tried to lite the corn on fire and all and we only got it half way burning and i got a whole bunch of flamable stuff and i lit it on fire and i saw a car coming down the road so i had to like stomp it out but smoke was goin everywhere anyways... phew um... we got bored and had 2 warm pickles left and it was like 2 ish or 3ish am and we decided to ask someone if they'd give us a ride up to megans hosue cause we didnt feel like walking and a very sexy dilly gave us a ride back but wouldn't take the warm pickles so um yeah it was fun and i left out a lot of details but oh well. anyways mom picked me up this mourning and we drove around and then went to safeway where my beautiful sister ronda works.. give her a surprise and drop by the safeway bakery.. anyways i bought red hair dye and a whole bunch of donuts n chips and junk food cause my mom rocks at the moment and yeah i just dyed my hair and now i'm done. so yeah toodles dolls

 

These days are the

 best days of

our lives...

um like.. yesterday me, chunk, christine, and ronda went to 6 flags and of course ronda got sick after like the first ride which was the iron eagle or whatever and after a while me and megan split and went somewhere else away from them and like we went on moure rides and like hahaha  we got on the bumper cars and i couldn't get mine started at first so i was goin in circles and then out of no where i get hit from behind hahaha and i turned and saw it was megan.. hahahaha man that was great i thought the bumper car was gonna like seriously fling off the stupid road thing and after six flags we went over pats house and went to some sport store so they could do lord knows what and me megan & the lovely ronda were messin around on the stupid work out machines and me and megan found matching spedo bottoms.. man they were hot shits. Pat made dinner and we watched "taking lives" yeah.. gross movie.. i'd watch it again but the moaning and angelina jolees boobs were kinda.. um yeah haha oh man i was so turned on. anyways we left his house at like 12 and got to megans to drop her off at like 1245 maybe.. maybe a lot later idk.. and me and chrisinte were up and ronda was sleeping in the car and we were driving down fuckin route 8 and like christine was going 65 on a 50 and a cop pulls out of lord knows where and christine told ronda to get registration from the glove compartment and ronda pulls out my dads...... warning ticket thing and hands it to the cop thinking it was.. god idk what she thought it was.. christine was pissed .. heres a lovely quote from the dupester .. "THAT STUPID FUCKIN DICK I HOPE HE FUCKIN DIES"..a hahahahahhah man that was great. and like the cop was walking away from the car and ronda hollers out the window . "THANKS OFFICER".. yeah it was fun. today i went over megans and i went to her volleyball practice and saw all the gay retards that i had moved away from.. sike i still love them and we went back to megans and went to shannons and went to the snowball stand and aww brady was there.. megans lover and yeah so was her ex lover. caveman ahhaha lucky her. i know she could'nt resist thinking of brady and his contagious kiss.. haha riiiiiighhhhttt. so yeah i couldn't spend the nite anywhere tonite so i'm gonna tomorrow so yeah.

I miss you less with each day

 you're gone

(you're gone)

Currently Playing Tell All Your Friends By Taking Back Sunday see related

- ghost man on third -

kaycees stupid.

we went shopping today at the mall while our rents were somewhere else.. i really don't know where and umm. .yeah i have to be up in like 4 hours but thats ok cause i'm not gonna go to bed at all.. i'll be home tomorrow though so yeah. i'll update later